More questions

I now that doing the right thing and living according to how the Lords requires us is the most important part, and that people are attracted to those who have that spirit with them, but I still wonder why it feels I don't have a lot of friends. Maybe it means I am not living my life the way I am supposed too, or not doing enough to get that spirit in my life more often. I would like to think I am living as best as I can. I am not upset that I don't have tons of friends always calling and wanting to do stuff because I do have some. And I always have my wonderful buddy, Katie. We went on a trip over the Christmas holiday and I had such a great time just spending the time with her. I was thinking the other day that we as members of the church are sometimes too critical of ourselves. People make mistakes and they repent, but it is hard sometimes to forgive yourself. I don't know why I think about this, but I do, it may be because I need to focus more on forgiving myself. The main question I have is more of a rhetorical question, not one that can or should be answered by others. What can I do in my life to have the spirit with me even more? What are the things I need to do in order to have that "glow" that can be seen in those who have been born of God? Do I even have it yet, or is there a lot more that I need to be doing? I am not sure of the answers, but based on the statement I made about people being too critical of themselves, I would say I am doing better than I give myself credit for. It just sometimes I would like to be told that I am doing what I need to be doing and that I have that "glow". But I guess I should be praying and asking for that comfort when I have these questions. Just a few more questions and thoughts I have had the past little while.